Trecena Observation #2 (13/1 day count, 02.06.2008-02.18.2008)
by Jozen-Bo
Free Words:
First I would like to note that I posted the first Trecena Report a day late, I had already written it, then copied and pasted it the next morning. Thus, I began on the 6th and not the 7th. This posting covers the dates from the 6th to the 18th of Feb., 2008.
It has been one long trip! The last 13 days have seems more like 1 or 2 months! Time has been going by very slowly. I continued the spinning each day for roughly 30 minutes for the first 7 days. Things developed quicker then ever before, they where developing too sudden and so I stopped for the next 5 days. I noticed that during the 7 day build up subjective experience of time slowed down incredibly, I quickly began to see all sorts of energies, and an amazing series of synchronized events began to take place. It all happened too quickly and I felt like I was in the twilight zone (thanks for the reference Mr. P.Episode!, its quite useful!)
I am lead to the idea that I am becoming aware of more things that are happening in a regular time interval then normal, thus my subjective sense of time seems longer, though the actual objective time remains the same.
My mind began looking inward and I began to see energies buried deep within things, reaching the Singular Heart of Phenomena and trying to make sense of what I saw. I have seen it before, but never so clearly or vividly. I have noticed over 10 types of energy during this time. Lights would spring up out of nowhere as if to communicate with me? They almost alway correspond with a good notion, as if to say "that is correct".
Reality began to take on a fluid appearance, like an illusion. It become harder to take things seriously and harder not to take things seriously both. Flashes mildly began to fill my mind, at first here and there, then a flood of visions. I don't know where to begin? My senses began to become hyper sensitive and this was painful, as I have been rotten away for some time now and my body is finally accepting the painful circumstances I have presented it with during the past. Poison is squeezed out at many levels, and this is not comfortable.
Smoking a cigarette has become very dreadful, as soon as I inhale I feel the tobacco screaming through my system, colliding into my physical structure and tormenting it. My head rushes from this and my body and skin immediately begin to kick out the poisonous substances, I began to perspire shortly after each cigarette. I could feel the operation occur at the subatomic level of my being. Coffee, too, has gone from being a mild stimulant to a powerful drug, a single cup tweaking my system more then it usually would. Needless to say, my desire for coffee and cigarettes is being reduced to a ghost of my habitual awarenesses.
My dreams seem to be returning slowly to me. I am having more awareness of them, though I am still forgetting them as the day continues. More importantly I can feel them, as if they are still here now being a part of my thought processes.
My mind seems as if something is communicating to it, prodding it to take more affirmative actions. I hear things that are not my thoughts. I never feel alone. As well, my mind seems to be changing its focus and it is beginning to see things more clearly, as to what I should do next. Though I feel I have even more to do then I did the last time, I don't feel so overwhelmed by it. I am feeling things that are impossible to describe, so many things all at once. I have not had the experience of feeling my EXISTENCE in time stretch out this time, but I sense I will soon.
After 7 days I had to stop. Everything was spinning around me faster then I could comprehend and I was becoming dazed and confused by it. I would literally look at something and see waves and points zipping in curled patterns in directions that are hard to describe...going every which way at once or doing many other things. I have began to see shadow edges dance again, white-silvery clouds that aren't there, little fizzle lights that dance and tease me, black red tracers, vibrations of warped vision or vibrating areas, and still more. On top of this came the synchronizations of too many things to bother noting. My head began to feel pressures and then I could feel other pressures elsewhere then my body.
During the 7th day of spinning the Mind Portal began to behave as never before. The whole wheel began to light up with sparkling energy, explosions of
red crackling lights, little silver lights, and specks of white light. The energy waves around the wheel became ultra clear and I could see it drawing them in as it spit other waves out. It often feels like my mind is pushing this wheel further each time, it seems to be taking longer to come to a stop then before, I am left asking myself if this is subjectively or objectively happening?
I could feel the crystal-liquids in my brain literally moving and shifting with tremendous speed. Like a muscle moves when it flexes, regions of my brain shifted in an incredibly short amount of time and I felt it happen. I could feel the cells participating. I could hear the clicking sound caused by fluids moving about it my head. It was happening physically. I was a little shocked and at the same time thrilled by this. How is the world going to ignore this? It is beyond a question or a doubt that this does something! The world will soon become increasingly responsible for finding out EXACTLY HOW THIS IS WORKING!!! The stakes are big and I can feel the pressure of this!
This brings up a very important observation, the feeling of pressure. It is so difficult to deal with. I feel another body of mine somewhere else and this causes a pressure I can scarcely describe. I feel powerful forces contending for my mind, hidden though they may be. Reality has bent ever so slightly, but enough for me to notice. So...I had to stop.
The next 5 days (of no spinning) things slowly went back to normal, my sense of time returned to normal, the energy I see has not gone away...I can even see it now...but it is not so much, so clear, nor so vivid. The synchronizations have also slowed down considerably. I have been rooting myself to prepare for the next launching. I resumed the spinning after the 5 day pause. Between now and the next Trecena Report I will try harder to keep spinning at least once a day without pause.
NOTE:I am shaving roughly every 5 days at this point in time.  |