“Originally Posted by Jozen-Bo
Trecena Observation #8 (13*7 day counts)
April 23th, 2008 - May 5th, 2008”
Consecutive Days:12 (from of 23)
Total Days: 53/91 (corrected)
This is five days late. I continued to spin the calendar for five days further after my last report, reaching 23 days consecutively. Time began to slow down much more then ever before, it became freakishly slow. Days were stretching out and at times my body felt a panic as if the day would never end. These sensations come about now and then in life, but from day to day, increasing with each day and at every moment, there is no way this is normal.
Reality all around me was slurring by. I would experience many more moments in between a second. As I'd see people walk by I could feel energy recursions bouncing back and forth from their motions and sometimes even see it. The whole sight of things around me appeared at times to warp inward like a bubble. I recall watching the clock and then in the next minute it going back an hour, this happened twice. Time itself was stretching out and I found it increasingly intense and difficult. After the second time of seeing time do this and feeling a sense of isolation from the normal reality the peoples minds are tuned into around me, I had to take a break.
I recall beginning to see light within people. And I began to see on occasions
streaks of reddish silver energy ripping off of objects and leaving open patches of an empty void underneath, its like looking into the nothing within anything. Everything seemed so empty at these time. The energy directly connected to the material world, as the material world appears to collapse streaming streaks of its energy backwards. Its like looking at electric light tear the scene apart for a second, then it patches itself up again. And the way these streaks ripped through, into a pattern where the material was opening up.
There was so much noise in the Universe around me, I could hear so much in places so far away. And yet there was a silence inside that I never experienced to such an extent. At first the overall change seemed like hell, but looking but it was to the contrary, more peaceful then anything I recall. I find that my thoughts were going everywhere and where out of control. At one point I stepped back and watched it as a spectator and found a deeper silence still.
I have been pondering how to withstand the immense blast of going in as the days build up. How to stay stabilized. I recall someone saying that I alone had to do this, and regardless of where he was coming from when he said that, I find those words of great use. I will be confronting myself as I entering deeper and deeper into the Portal. I will no longer concern myself with the result of anything, though I will strive to perform my best, I won't have to care if I try, I'll know I tried.
I have stopped for the last 8 days and time has finally returning to a normal pace, speeding up and going by much quicker. I find this easier...and less satisfying. I will be returning soon and this time I will have the second code complete. As I recall I was able to get times done many, many times over with the first code, as I was able to use my time better. I had more control of my mind, I could force myself to do what I focused on much better. I know, I used it and found this out. The new code is 3000 times more precise then the previous and offers more control bottoms. This translates to Power! Focus! Control!
I also recall seeing energy when spinning the wheel more intensely then ever before to. I was beginning to have more intense multidimensional sensations as I could see and feel days flashing through my mind as the symbols flashed them at me. Invisible trails of energy winding, rolling, and curving about in so many different ways. I began to notice a different kind of energy trail, one that reached out slowly like a branch in the wind, but having a rushing pulse like a river as it swayed. It would connect to trails forming around a field outside my body.
At this point is is beyond any doubt to me this isn't doing anything. This is becoming so much fun! I can enter a different world, way different then the one every one knows. This is changing reality, as my mind is a part of reality. Thus this is changing reality. The perception shift is incredibly powerful and undeniable. In a day I will be working with the new code and able to focus and force myself, while spotting oncoming destabilizing patterns and avoiding of transmuting them.
It is obvious and clear there is a huge difference between making a map and tracking it stationary and that of spinning it. If the map is spun, the affects on the mind are very intense and one enters a different state of mind, one that keeps changing and changing, getting more intense and further away from the reality that is so normal, easy, and boring. To use the calendar without spinning it still gives a powerful ability to command one's own mind as they have something to focus the patterns of their mind against! There is no question about this anymore to me. I am enjoying this, this is going to be so much fun!!!
NOTE: I have shaved 1 once during this 13 day period.  |