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Old 02-23-2008, 09:51 AM
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Default The Incredible Mind Portal!!!!!!

Hello!!!

The topic here is perfect for introducing my work! Sometimes I refer to it as an invention, sometimes as a discovery, and sometimes as a part of nature that springs up like plants and life did. Its called the Mind Portal, because it is a Portal that takes you deep into your mind. It works more powerfully then anything I have ever encountered for doing this. Its so powerful that it should be approached with proper respect for what its potentials truly are and what it is!

I will go over the 5 basics:What, When, Where, Why, How?

What is the Mind Portal?



"The original name of the original prototype is the Dharma Flower Calendar, though this device has many names and many functions. It is also known as The Big Attraction, The Spiral Calendar, The Mind Portal, The Time Machine, The Wheel Deal, The Main Attractor, The Geometric Void, The Canvas of Life, and The Eye of Time. It is to you what you call it and it is to me what I call it. Call it what you want. Also, this is only a calendar so long as it is used as one, it is an autosuggestion device when used as one, it is a mathematical graph when used as one; it is what it’s used for. In short, its much more then a calendar, it is what you make of it."
-Jozen

"What is this?
A calendar, map, attractor, portal, tunnel, rift, compass, game, ledger, reflection, space, spiral, sign, movement, gateway, journey, time machine, memory, guide, path, door, year, projection, paradigm, adventure, discovery, creation, act, art, key, myth, legend, universe, quest, bridge, potential, tool, canvas, picture, extension, immortal trace, trip, pulse, breach, amplifier, image, vision, sequence, idea, testimony, language, power, and phenomena are just a few ways to identify this ‘calendar’."

-Jozen

Why should I bother? This IS a forum for people who are open to alternative means of connection to energy and the mind. If you are on this forum I imaging this won't be too difficult a question to answer. This thing will give you new perspective abilities, you will literally see energy, feel energy, hear and sense energy as never before. It will amplify and enhance your senses. You will dream more frequently and vividly. Oh yeah...it will develop your PSI abilities with warp speed, faster then you can imagine. The list of what this does goes on and on, as does the list of why you should use it. I will provide a link where more information can be gathered.

OK...How do you use it? In order to enter the mind portal one must take a good look at themselves and figure out where their life is and where it is going. Devise a tracking matrix code to write down the things you do in a geometric encrypted code and then put that code into the calender. One day at a time, the patterns of your life will emerge and with this knowledge you can better change them and control you destiny. Then...put the Calendar on a Wheel and spin it. It turns into a Mind Time Tunnel that opens and reveals memory (BIGGY HERE!!!) and changes your Mind as you Change you Mind. I started with a Bicycle to spin...


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This works more then YOU COULD POSSIBLY BEGIN TO IMAGINE!!!!!!! Find out when you are ready.


When...when is this? When is the question of when does this thing appear in the world...in your case it appears now. When do you start using it? When you are spiritually ready for it! When do the days start in the calendars units? Whenever you want them to, they have no dates, only spaces for tracking your life down.

Where to begin? Begin with you...you alone must decide if this is interesting enough to try. If you decide so then E-mail me a message saying "WANT A COPY" and I will immediately (within 1-2 days) send you an e-mail with the PDF file attached. You can then print out smaller copies to get a feel for the energy you now possess. Whenever you want you can take the PDF file to a print shop and print out a full-sized copy...


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Which is fairly big and gives a lot of space per a day to put a track into. Start where ever you are. The first day of this calendar can be your birthday, January the 1st, July the 26th, or whatever. Any cultural system can easily make their day the first day. There are no formal rules about this!



This is a HUGE DEVELOPMENT ON EARTH. I will provide the Link of the First Presentational thread about the Mind Portal, because it has grown and has a lot of valuable info...

The Mind Portal!!! - SciForums.com


I will let this conclude my opening presentation of the Mind Portal. I will be very happy to see any responces, answer any questions, or receive any criticisms. Participation in this thread is highly welcome and I look forward to watching this thread grow.

With My Kindest Regards,
Jozen-Bo
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Please feel free to ask any questions or post any comments. Without doing so this thread will be very slow to develop. I know this tends to leave people speechless, but give it a shot if you can. I will certianly get back to giving an answer. If this thread can go past the 7th page, then I will start to provide some very interesting information, but only if it manages to get that far. So help it get there and say anything relevant that you can think of. Thanks!

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Hello, Jozen-Bo.

What I couldn't understand is:
1. What is it good for?
2. How to use this?
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Hello, Jozen-Bo.

What I couldn't understand is:
1. What is it good for?
2. How to use this?
Hello Jacob!

Sorry I have been so busy lately. I'll go ahead and answer your questions. The answers will be straight forward and to the point. In order to build them into power bases of information, you should keep asking questions to bring clarity to your understanding. The more questions I get, the more Information I provide. So...

What is it good for? To save myself some time and energy (considering the name of these forums, I think you will understand) I will quote myself:

"The wheel is enshrouded in mystery. At the moment there is no proof as to what this does. All I can do is make a claim based on my own observations. I'll briefly write down what I have observed personally.

Benefit #1...Increased frequency of dreams. Increased clarity of dreams. Increased control of dreams. Increased vivid perception of dreams. Lucid dreaming. A means to dream mastery...as one gets better and better new possibilities open up. Of all my observations, I am most certain about this one. It's almost too obvious to me and I have very little doubt that testing would prove otherwise!

Benefit #2...Augments memory access. You remember things better and quicker. It exercises the memory, one of society's primal assets. I can not be sure what the limit is here. At times it seems that the memory is working too good, giving a sensation that your awareness is spread out through time and not just here and now. I have observed many different interesting effects in conjunction with the memory, not just one.

Benefit #3...Increased ability to focus the mind. This one also almost goes without saying. The whole act of putting a code together and focusing on it is already an exercise in focus.

Benefit #4...It stimulates the creative mind. I have observed that I start getting lots of ideas for new inventions when or shortly after working with it. You might say it is an inventing that invents inventors.

Benefit #5...Increased visual imaging. Your ability to visualize things increases dramatically. A definite observation of mine. Mental pictures become crisp, colorful, and ultra-clear. They become increasingly dynamic. The mind becomes more capable of imaging the dynamics of multiple objects, it can orchestrate. The images are more potent and clear, not vague and fuzzy.
They can be sustained for a longer amount of time, without wobbling into other thoughts and images.

Benefit #8...Increased mind control. Be the master of your mind, don't let it master you. Off course it doesn't happen over night, but I have observed that my ability to make my mind up decisively and stick to my decision has increased.

Benefit #7...Increased physical prowess. You become physically faster and stronger because you can tune into and exert a limited control over your glands. I am tempted to go into fighting professionally to prove this, but it goes against my nature of not fighting.

Benefit #8...Increased interest in everything! The discipline of observing the details and overall pattern of life makes everything more interesting. You won't spend as much time being bored!!! Even the stuff we normally might perceive without interest becomes more interesting, such as brushing your teeth.

Benefit #9...Accelerated learning. When one studies a subject with increased interest they will always get out/learn more from it then if they are not interested. Increased interest means you are going to learn faster!

Benefit #10...Increased arousal. I won't go into the details, except to say that the Mind Portal can be used as sex map.

Benefit #11...Increased ability to organize. The very act of making a code is organizing the mind. Using it allows one to see objectively what one has done. Then it is easier to see where mistakes or bad patterns of living are occurring. This then makes it harder to continue making those patterns or mistakes.

Benefit #12...Increased productivity. If any of the other benefits are eventually proven, this one goes without saying. Personally, I have observed that I am much more productive when working with the wheel.

Benefit #13...More energy. I have also observed that I way more energy when working with the wheel then not. Sometimes I even have too much energy.

These 13 benefits are the easiest to pin down. There are many other benefits, some of which are more esoteric and difficult to determine. I will give some examples of some of the more questionable benefits:

Questionable Benefit #1...Seeing energy! As the eyes become readjusted they gain the ability to see subtle energies. I can't be sure of what it is I see, but I do see it. I suspect that I have seen more of the visible portion of the electro-magnetic spectrum then normal. I have distinguished over 50 types of energy, I should probably classify what I have seen. One of the most common is seeing vibrations coming out of people's heads, as if they are thinking. Why the head? My guess is that they are thinking.

Questionable Benefit #2...Increased sensitivity. The body becomes increasingly sensitive to the energy it begins to perceive. I can feel things that would normally be to subtle to feel. The slightest vibration is detected...sensed. This off course means better SEX!

Questionable Benefit #3...Increased hearing and coordination of what is heard. I have observed that my sense of hearing is not the same, either. It seems better. My ability to listen to multiple conversations at once appears to be greater. Lots of interesting observations regards the sense of hearing.

Questionable Benefit #4....Increased taste and smell. I have also observed that sometimes my sense of smell becomes too good and I can smell many different things at once and gather information from this. As well, my sense of taste has experienced change too, though not as much. I have observed that I have tasted things without putting my tongue on them.

Questionable Benefit #5...A sense of Divinity. I feel things, my intuition seems highly refined. I feel a sense of ease, that everything is well planned out by Nature. I do not worry because of this.

Questionable Benefit #6...No fear of Death whatsoever!!! I have become fearless. I can't say for sure if this is one of the benefits, because my fearlessness occurred immediately ofter a very spiritual experience. It might be, because that experience might be connected to the work I am doing with the wheel.

Questionable Benefit #7...Lots of things. I didn't list everything here. There are many things I have observed, a definite increase of curiousity. The list of benefits and questionable benefits could be expanded, but I believe this is enough for now.
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-Jozen-Bo

Now for your second question.
How to use this? Simple, write down a list of the things you do with your time, start with generalizations and work on the details later. Example: Studied...generalization. Studied physics...more specific and detailed.

Now for each of these things in the list, make a symbol that can fit in a box that is roughly 2 x 1 inch. For different things place the symbols in different places or have them overlap in certain chosen ways. Symbols can be different kinds of lines, squares, circles, etc. I will be scanning some examples as soon as I have my scanner running.

Now, pick up a notebook for keeping track of the things you do. At the end of the day write down everything you did...using key words to save time. Example:
Brushed teeth
changed clothes
ate cereal and milk for breakfeast
rode bike to work
worked
lunch
worked
rode bike home
etc.

Then place the symbols into a little box at the corner of the note book's page where the entries where written down. At the end of the week (or when ever you want- but if you let too much time slide...keeping track gets harder to do) transcribe those symbol matrix structures from the box into corresponding positions in the calendar.

As the days fill in, the tracks wind around the center 13 times. The patterns emerge and with the new awareness. And with new awareness comes new power to change. And lots of other things happen. But one step at a time.

To take this using part to a higher plane, build a larger wheel that can accommodate the calender. Then place the calendar on the wheel. Then spin the wheel and watch your life turn into a time tunnel of energy. And consume that awareness, the electromagnetic energy goes straight into your cells from your eyes, activating their awareness. This will do many things, some of which I have already noted above!

Please ask questions. Without questions this thread will be very slow to unfold the information that exists in a potential state at this moment. Thanks Jacob!!!

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I think posting a few picture might help one to get an idea of how the symbols work. SINCE THEY COMMUNICATE THINGS THAT WORDS CANNOT!


By JozenBo at 2008-02-26

This is the first encryption code system I ever used. There are 364 days, all logged and entered into the calendar. This wheel has had incredibly powerful effects on my mind and consciousness. I can now see people's thought coming right our of their heads!



This thumbnail (click on thumbnail to enlarge) shows an alternative matrix code system.


By jozenbo at 2008-02-12

This shows a spiral Star of David...Anahata!!! The heart chakra resonates to this geometric shape, and when we spin this it balances the heart chakra and stimulates the flow of energy through it, helping to unleash the kundalini!

I have lots of helpful pictures, but I post in intervals, not all at once. Aim a question at my and see what happens.

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Sorry I've been away for some time. It is hard work trying to get this to get the recognition it deserves. I haven't seen too many questions, and the more questions I see, the more pressing it is on my Mind to answer them. Please ask anything you want that will help in understanding.

I will post my Trecena Reports here, as they may help one to get an idea of what going into the Mind Portal is like, though we are different people prone to having different unique experiences, to those who enter- you are likely to have experiences that are special and unique to you alone, as well as experiences that are universal...such as seeing energy.

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Trecena Observation #1 (0/13 day count)

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Yesterday I spun the wheel. It looked different then it has before, the symbols didn’t seem to be on a flat surface. In the past I have seen it do stranger things, but still I haven’t seen it like this. My eyes can follow the outer edges easier then ever before.

I notice one odd observation in particular. In the past I timed the spin a couple different times. It always stopped after approximately 7 minutes. This time the spin lasted 13 minutes. I spun one way, then the other to counter-balance the burn of light as it enters my eyes. This gives a total of 26 minutes of spin time. I am not going to jump to any conclusions about this, simply keep note of it.

During the Spin my mind goes in and out of thought. I suddenly feel like the Chinese Kid from enter the Dragon, who gets hit on the head by Bruce Lee for staring at the finger when I should be seeing the moon. I have been losing too much time, not looking where I should be.

As the wheel slows my mind stops. Memories of the year it holds return to me a little bit. Then mild flashes, nothing outstanding, but there nonetheless, return to my mind briefly. I feel a sense of loss; I have lost so much time. So much I feel I need to get done, I am overwhelmed. It seems impossible. I don’t know where I am.

At this moment I have sudden Déjà vu as I write this. I never did this before! Where is it coming from? It is not so important. I must get my tracks and then get on track. I am lost at the moment. I do not dream so much anymore, and my dreams that I remember fade away into ambiguity. Enough.

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Trecena Observation #2 (13/1 day count, 02.06.2008-02.18.2008)
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Free Words:
First I would like to note that I posted the first Trecena Report a day late, I had already written it, then copied and pasted it the next morning. Thus, I began on the 6th and not the 7th. This posting covers the dates from the 6th to the 18th of Feb., 2008.

It has been one long trip! The last 13 days have seems more like 1 or 2 months! Time has been going by very slowly. I continued the spinning each day for roughly 30 minutes for the first 7 days. Things developed quicker then ever before, they where developing too sudden and so I stopped for the next 5 days. I noticed that during the 7 day build up subjective experience of time slowed down incredibly, I quickly began to see all sorts of energies, and an amazing series of synchronized events began to take place. It all happened too quickly and I felt like I was in the twilight zone (thanks for the reference Mr. P.Episode!, its quite useful!)

I am lead to the idea that I am becoming aware of more things that are happening in a regular time interval then normal, thus my subjective sense of time seems longer, though the actual objective time remains the same.

My mind began looking inward and I began to see energies buried deep within things, reaching the Singular Heart of Phenomena and trying to make sense of what I saw. I have seen it before, but never so clearly or vividly. I have noticed over 10 types of energy during this time. Lights would spring up out of nowhere as if to communicate with me? They almost alway correspond with a good notion, as if to say "that is correct".

Reality began to take on a fluid appearance, like an illusion. It become harder to take things seriously and harder not to take things seriously both. Flashes mildly began to fill my mind, at first here and there, then a flood of visions. I don't know where to begin? My senses began to become hyper sensitive and this was painful, as I have been rotten away for some time now and my body is finally accepting the painful circumstances I have presented it with during the past. Poison is squeezed out at many levels, and this is not comfortable.

Smoking a cigarette has become very dreadful, as soon as I inhale I feel the tobacco screaming through my system, colliding into my physical structure and tormenting it. My head rushes from this and my body and skin immediately begin to kick out the poisonous substances, I began to perspire shortly after each cigarette. I could feel the operation occur at the subatomic level of my being. Coffee, too, has gone from being a mild stimulant to a powerful drug, a single cup tweaking my system more then it usually would. Needless to say, my desire for coffee and cigarettes is being reduced to a ghost of my habitual awarenesses.

My dreams seem to be returning slowly to me. I am having more awareness of them, though I am still forgetting them as the day continues. More importantly I can feel them, as if they are still here now being a part of my thought processes.

My mind seems as if something is communicating to it, prodding it to take more affirmative actions. I hear things that are not my thoughts. I never feel alone. As well, my mind seems to be changing its focus and it is beginning to see things more clearly, as to what I should do next. Though I feel I have even more to do then I did the last time, I don't feel so overwhelmed by it. I am feeling things that are impossible to describe, so many things all at once. I have not had the experience of feeling my EXISTENCE in time stretch out this time, but I sense I will soon.

After 7 days I had to stop. Everything was spinning around me faster then I could comprehend and I was becoming dazed and confused by it. I would literally look at something and see waves and points zipping in curled patterns in directions that are hard to describe...going every which way at once or doing many other things. I have began to see shadow edges dance again, white-silvery clouds that aren't there, little fizzle lights that dance and tease me, black red tracers, vibrations of warped vision or vibrating areas, and still more. On top of this came the synchronizations of too many things to bother noting. My head began to feel pressures and then I could feel other pressures elsewhere then my body.

During the 7th day of spinning the Mind Portal began to behave as never before. The whole wheel began to light up with sparkling energy, explosions of
red crackling lights, little silver lights, and specks of white light. The energy waves around the wheel became ultra clear and I could see it drawing them in as it spit other waves out. It often feels like my mind is pushing this wheel further each time, it seems to be taking longer to come to a stop then before, I am left asking myself if this is subjectively or objectively happening?

I could feel the crystal-liquids in my brain literally moving and shifting with tremendous speed. Like a muscle moves when it flexes, regions of my brain shifted in an incredibly short amount of time and I felt it happen. I could feel the cells participating. I could hear the clicking sound caused by fluids moving about it my head. It was happening physically. I was a little shocked and at the same time thrilled by this. How is the world going to ignore this? It is beyond a question or a doubt that this does something! The world will soon become increasingly responsible for finding out EXACTLY HOW THIS IS WORKING!!! The stakes are big and I can feel the pressure of this!

This brings up a very important observation, the feeling of pressure. It is so difficult to deal with. I feel another body of mine somewhere else and this causes a pressure I can scarcely describe. I feel powerful forces contending for my mind, hidden though they may be. Reality has bent ever so slightly, but enough for me to notice. So...I had to stop.

The next 5 days (of no spinning) things slowly went back to normal, my sense of time returned to normal, the energy I see has not gone away...I can even see it now...but it is not so much, so clear, nor so vivid. The synchronizations have also slowed down considerably. I have been rooting myself to prepare for the next launching. I resumed the spinning after the 5 day pause. Between now and the next Trecena Report I will try harder to keep spinning at least once a day without pause.


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“Originally Posted by Jozen-Bo
Trecena Observation #3 (13*2 day count, 02.19.2008-03.02.2008)
by Jozen-Bo”

Free Words:

For the last 13 days I have stopped. So, there won't be as much to report this time. Time has sped up and passed by quicker these last 13 days. Today was unusually quick. I have noticed some other people around me feel the same. I stopped for a few reasons. I will discuss them later. For now, it is important that I resume and carry on.

My awareness has gone down slightly. I can feel the affects sinking in to my cells still. Things are still happening, but they are harder to describe. There has been a lot of difficulty lately. It takes WILLPOWER to push through the limits as those limits try to bind me. I am being challenged in many ways on many different levels. Its not easy.

I have been dreaming more every night for the last 13 nights, even though I haven't spun during this time. My dreams continue each night to get longer, more vivid, and clearer. My subconscious is communicating to me directly, I wake up feeling and remembering the dreams much more clearly. Even more important, I understand what they mean. For example: Last night's dream was a very clear message to continue. The feeling moves me.

My mind has been communicating to itself a lot these last days. As I said the affects are settling in. I am not seeing as much directly with my eyes, though I am still seeing energy here and there. There is more going on under the surface, in my inner senses, then there was before. This makes it more difficult to describe.

I feel where I am better then before. I feel more grounded. It is a good time to continue. I find that I am very close to the Singular Point of Phenomena, from there I can feel everyone's emotions all around the world. Its as if I am inside of everything and everything is inside of me, which is actually how things really are. What makes this exceptional is that I am sensing this directly.

Not as excited lately. Worn out a little, even more as I spin less. I came close to making some decisions that are best described as a resort. They have been avoided. I am focusing a little more on my rhythyms. They need tuning. Much to do, it seems more overwhelming then when I was spinning, but it also seems not so important. I feel more peaceful when I am not stressing about the importance. I am not responsible for this world...am I? Then again, if we all have an attitude like this...we are bound to lose the human race. Trying to stay balanced isn't always easy. The middle way is evasive.

If it is true that I have zeroed in on the singular point of Phenomena, then I have access to everything in existence and I am accessing everything in existence. If this be real, then this sort of Power beckons the highest responsibility I can think of. I need to go Lightly. Does it all matter? Always!
I am out of words for now...I am tired and have to work...I will go and spin the calendar now before it gets too late and I am too tired to put forth the effort.


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“Originally Posted by Jozen-Bo
Trecena Observation #4 (13*3 day counts)
March 2nd, 2008 - March 14th, 2008”

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I am writing this 3 days late. Its been a LONG 13 days. Longer then the last when I consider how the time went by so slowly. I spun consistently for the first seven days, trying to get back to the place where I was before. Then, I had bitten off a chunk too big to chew and had too much to do. I missed the last 6 days.

A lot of thoughts have been stirring in the deeper regions of my mind these last days. I can feel this process more then I usually do. I seemed to be adjusting just prior to stopping. It was getting easier to watch the wheel spin, but the longer days weren't so easy at times.

Because I have stopped, my senses and nerves have dulled. I don't feel the pains of discharging deep cellular poison so much, because my body isn't actively discharging them as much.

I also haven't been having much unusual sight activity in my vision, though I have noted some. The main thing I have noted is a feeling that the effects where sinking into my mind, I could feel this. As they settle, I feel a chain reaction of thought processes occur. The complexity of these reactions and the inner flashes of vision in my mind cannot be clarified.

I have noted that my sense of smell has been much better then normal. I have been smelling things prior to them being where I can smell them. Sometimes its seems as if I am smelling scents from some place so far away, I won't bother mentioning how far.

I have to get stricter about keeping up with the spin. I have to finish that last tiny bit of code of the 2nd revolution. Its like a car that won't run unless everything is working. If this 'car' is missing the ignition, how can I start the car?

As if my problems to juggle weren't enough, I was working as a Temp and just ran out of work, I have prepared enough maps so that the firm won't have to worry about making maps for some time. Without being able to provide me much work, they let me go. The rotten thing is, is that they didn't give any warning, I had moved from one city to the next, this took a great deal of time, energy and money. The firm had no plan for keeping me, but they should of told me 2 months in advance (its the right thing to do!).

Now I have 2-4 weeks to find work fast or the cost of living will pile over my head and I will be packing. My wife is scared, she is struggling with much uncertainty. That she is 4 months pregnant makes the situation 1000 times more frustrating for me. My thoughts are cursing this place for jeopardizing us as they did...most of the people in the firm who knew me were shocked and saddened by the news of my departure(and they are pardoned from my cursing thoughts). Only one person was dancing around and giggling like a little girl, the one who flirted with me only to be turned down. I am married. Being my immediate supervisor, she was in a position to pull strings. This kind of cr@p happens everyday in the real world. Sigh...

It is very frustrating to be looking for jobs that aren't were my heart is at, which is in this research. I have been studying for so long, though that normally doesn't matter too much, but my knowledge and experience have turned into something that should be put to better use. Well...at least I can say that without my help, should the authorities decide to investigate this Mind Portal later on, they won't get very far. I have been careful not to disclose too much, not even 1%. There are things I am aware of that would take them forever to figure out.

I might seem to be digressing, but this does tie into the overall frame of consciousness, it prepares for better understanding later to come as the changes occur. I won't have as much time for some time. I hope to change this soon.

Maybe this world isn't going to see where this goes, maybe our time will only see a glimpse. Perhaps I should start knocking on their (the government) doors again (they sort of looked the other way the last times). I am tired of the b*llsh!t of losing my life for the wrong reasons.

NOTE:I have shaved 2 times during this 13 day period.
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